Beyond Logic

December 28th marks the eve before the dumper leaves for home.

So many issues left unresolved...so many questions. Yet there is nothing I can do but wait. This is proving to be a problem coz being patient has never been one of my stronger points.

How is it that...after living with someone for 4 years...something like that could happen? Do we not get to know a person fairly well after that many years? Do we not develop the ability to understand, thus predict the other person? Why were there no warning signs that this was going to happen?

Let me rephrase that.

There were signs that a breakup would eventually come our way...but it is the nature of it that has left me baffled and slightly shocked. Still cannot believe that this person would do the things he did. There is not much anger left...just sadness at being let down. This was a person that I would have trusted with my life at one point. From the times when we talked all night, thought I understood him fairly well...but his actions of late is...just beyond my comprehension. I do not understand his hatred towards me. If he has felt that way, why didn't he say anything?

Am absolutely dreading the time when all this needs to be confronted. Don't think it would wise to leave them unresolved...but I just don't have the energy to go through it all...again.