Sunday, December 26, 2004

We need to talk...

It's funny how quickly news travel among family members...perhaps gossip would be a better word. Just got off the phone speaking with a relative who was sympathetic towards my recent and sudden break up. Guess what he said is true...it all being a part of growing up and life in general. While he was saying this, I was reminded of an episode from Friends. It was the one where Monica was catering to a party that Richard was hosting. Everyone was asking about his divorce with a sympathetic head-tilted-to-one-side "How are you coping?"....and he would reply with an "I'm okay" head bob. Were this a face-to-face situation, I'm sure my conversation with this uncle would have gone the very same way :)

So..this little incident made me ask myself...how am i really coping with this? Shamefully...did go on the rebound for awhile...whether I'd like to admit it or not. Nothing major...still a rebound nonetheless.

*Major cue to have a serious conversation with myself*

This past Christmas was a blast. Didn't sleep much, thus my irrugular sleeping pattern for the past few days. While the fun and hoo haa lasted, it felt great. Now that the dust has settled, it makes me wonder if I have been trying too hard to keep busy.

They say that when depression sets in, the worse thing you could do is stay home and think about the issue more. "Go out...get some fresh air" they say.

Is this really the way to go? Perhaps they are all wrong. While it is logical that keeping busy gives the mind a distraction, it is by no means the solution to our problems.

Perhaps when shit happens, we need to discuss things over with our inner voice(s)...and somehow...come to an understanding.

Come to a truce that our inner voice can live with...and our outer front can pull off.




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