Someone, please kill me...

Today we gave my cat away. Actually, we drove her to the SPCA and in under 10 minutes...she was gone. Just like that. Got a call from the SPCA at about 10am this morning asking if we were still interested in bringing the cat in. I feel like the worst betrayer alive. I betrayed my trusting litttle kitty. It hurts so much I will someone to kill me to end the misery.