Letter to Self # 205

Dear Self,

Please be patient and have faith. In what? I really do not know. But at least have faith in yourself and that things will work out one way or the other. They always do. Right? Do not lose faith and hope. Coz once you lose hope, there is nothing left.

But no, these days things are going okay. Count your blessings and not your pain. Hmm, knowing you though...being the melancholic that you are...there will always be pain somehow. That's the trait of truly gifted artists and the sort anyways ;)

Ah, shit...when will life start to take off? I'm already part way through yet it does not feel like it has started at all. Weird, huh. I seem to keep waiting for this...thing to happen. A thing which I have no clue about. Is there even a thing? Will I wait my entire life for something that will never happen?

If there is something I'm most afraid of (besides snakes), it would be to lay on my death bed regertting not living life to the fullest. I'm wasting my time here. There is so much to be done out there. Yet I'm sitting on my ass in a developed nation doing nothing but feel sorry for myself all the time. Ughh...I should be in India. Doing significant work. This womps. This truly womps.

Ughh...a few years. Give yourself a few years. It will work out. Be patient.