Confession: When it comes to romantic relationships, I am obsessed.
Tag reads: Hi! My name is Ana and I'm an obsessive compulsive.
Why is it that when I think of relationships, it always has to be black or white? We're either together or we're not. You're either into me or you're not. You either want this or you don't. There does not seem to be a middle ground.
Admittedly, it is me. Not the other person. If we're together, I seem to think that we have to spend all our time together. We have to be 100% dedicated to each other. There has to be attraction and chemistry all the time.
While I am rather flexible in other parts of my thinking, when it comes to this it seems to be so inflexible. Perhaps in my head there's an image of what a relationship should look like...
And when it doesn't happen the way I think it should, it hurts me beyond bearing. So then this is something I've known for a long time now.
I can never be friends with ex-es.
In hindsight, I almost hate the person that I become when I'm with someone. The neediness and dependency is so not all there is to life...
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