Humility well learnt

Is learnt a word? I think so, right? Humility is spelt with one L or two? Spelt? Spelled? Think I'm going off the edge.

I suppose sometimes it takes going through shite to realize the importance of not only being humble but actually feeling it. When your ego kicks in, you know what they say about the higher you go...the harder you fall. So true. There is a lesson to be learned here and it is that "acting" humble doesn't work. One has to feel it in the pit of her stomach. To really buy into the philosophy of it. Otherwise it's fake and meaningless.

This weekend I went to see my counsellor for the first time and it was pretty productive. Apparently I already know what I want but can't see a way to get it. Even just thinking about it is making me feel fatigue. Know what I mean?

So it feels like I have been carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders for the past couple of days, and finally it ended up with me being sick. Physically sick and it feels like a blessing in disguise somehow. Now I have to slow down and let things take its natural course. There are more important things in life than always being on the go and rushing and worrying.

Try sitting and breathing for one...