Dating Fallacies, dated May 13th contd.
Last weekend GFDF (guy-from-dating-fallacies) and I went out for the second time. We went for a walk along the beach, dinner and hungout on his balcony for the rest of evening. It was nice until he asked me the ever looming question, "what do you want from me?"
True enough, I did a double take.
Err, isn't it a little early to tell? Anyways as in my true nature I freaked out and fucked up yet again. In my mind that is. Having somehow evaded the question with a smile and another question, he let it go. Not for long.
Two days later he called saying that we needed to talk. Uh-oh, trapped into an adult conversation. Shit.
Contrary to my ever pessimistic POV, it went really well. It ended up with us both expressing interest in continuing to get to know each other. I like him, I really do.
But maybe that isn't enough. I am scared shitless. Waiting, waiting, waiting....for an opportunity for me to mess things up as always when it comes to matters of the heart. Patience and perhaps not forgetting to live my own life. Coz that's what I do, everything goes on hold.
No, not this time. Friends are friends. Work is work. My life and ambitions are what they are. I'm not putting my life on hold, waiting for a guy again.
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