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Hey guys,

Thanks SJ for caring enough to ask :) You have no idea how much that means to me.

Things have been rough sailing for a bit now. Today for instance I left class early after watching a video on grief. School is so difficult. The course we're doing is loss and grief. As always at this school, we're encouraged to explore our own issues and all that jazz.

*sigh*

I don't really know how to explain. Words are not doing my emotions any justice. So much pain, so much tears, so much emptiness, so much left unfinished...incomplete.

Ahh, this is the task of every person. We all have pain burried deep, deep inside. Waiting to be explored or forever be left buried.

Perls once said that in order to come into full contact with your environment and to live life to the fullest, one shall have to face issues face on. I believe him. This is my journey...

Truly, have faith in me. I will work through this. I have the strength in me, I know it. And while this journey has left me totally and completely self-centred and unable to focus on my environment, unable to be there for the people in my life, on the outer world itself....like a wound...it will heal. I will heal.

All I need is time and forgiveness. Let me be healed and I will once again come back.

lol...

The intensity of this all often leaves me feeling silly, being the emotionless person I normally am. But ah shite, live and let live.

Take care everyone, I really do appreciate any form of contact we have shared and will continue to share :)

*hugs*

Be good