Are you a believer?

My stand on horoscopes has been pretty stable over the years. While there may be truth in the basic personality styles and whatnot, I did not really believe in the ability to predict what one's mood is like from day to day. That would be silly.

Until today...

For those of you who keep in touch via MSN, you'd notice that my thingy for today says - fantasy without action is still day dreaming. After actually giving it some though, yeah...that was what I had come up with. It seemed to fit my mood today...

About an hour later, I read my horoscope recommended by a friend. Her's always seemed fairly accurate so then I decided to check it out.

Mine read:

Your mental process might be a bit cloudy today, Ana. It could be that you find yourself daydreaming more than usual, and it might be harder to take action.

You may feel like you are stuck in the mud and can't get out. If you tug too hard, you may rescue your foot but accidentally leave your shoe still lodged in there.

Slow down and take it easy. The more laid-back you are about the situations you encounter today, the more successful you'll be. Trying to force the situation will get you nowhere.

How freaky is that?!

Anywho, off I go into an emotional ventilating blab again.

Last night was rough. For some reason i felt really tired, annoyed and snappy. All of which came through for the people who were chatting with me online. While I successfully isolated myself from lashing out at people around me, the online chats took the brunt of it all...

I felt sad and alone and isolated. This is not fair. Once a month, I uncontrollably turn into this defeated heap of mess. PMS? Yes, for sure. Felt awkward and like I was going to cry all day yesterday. I hate what the stupid hormones does to me. Plus I had the nastiest stomach cramp...

Today, hmm. I did not go to school because tearing myself out of bed was just too much work. Worked until 9 pm last night. If you guys don't already know, my days of school and going to work begin from 8.30am with school and work doesn't end until about 10 or 11pm. Then I drive for about 45 mins to get home. And school again the next day. Sometimes I just am not physically capable of doing it.

And on weekends, I mostly work or do volunteer work. So whatever rest time I have feels like it has to be crammed with "relaxing" stuff, which of course does not happen.

Today I don't work so, decided to stay home. It feels weird, not having to go anywhere. Not having any plans. Will try not to go out tonight/ this evening either. Can't really remember the last time I stayed home all day. So today I feel kinda calm. Rejuvenated. Spent the entire morning looking at job postings in Malaysia and other places. Trying to decide on a destination and a date for my air ticket.

Next step in life chica...yes, yes it is that time again. Time to pack up and move on...

Am I enjoying this nomadic way of life? Some part of me must, seeing that it keeps happenning...

But for today, I am feeling that things will turn out okay. They are okay now too.

Off to go read something, maybe one of my dalai lama books :) Peace out guys...