"Codependent people have a greater tendency to become involved in relationships with people who are unreliable, emotionally unavailable, or needy.
Codependents try to control a relationship without directly identifying and addressing their own needs or desires on their own.
This invariably means that they set themselves up for continued unfulfillment.
Codependents always feel that they are acting in another person's best interest, making it difficult for them to see the controlling nature of their own behavior."
Where do I sign up for the CoDA chapter closest to here??
Ughh another one of my I'm-so-sick-of-this rant coming on...
Why, why, why...
So stupid!
Even as we speak...I feel myself being sucked into this mess, yes folks...again!
But in my defense though, he did lead me on some...
I know he's not emotionally available yet he is the person I want. Ughh, and I know the bastard is using me to kill time, to entertain himself...
Yet everytime he rings that lil bell, it feels like I come running back lol...
Fishing, yes...that's what it feels like...
He sets the bait, casts the line and everytime...like clock work...I get hooked. Then despite my attempts at resisting, me reels me in only to rip the hook off and cast me back into the ocean...lol...then he lets me swim away for a bit and sure enough...
ahhh the agony, the agony...
But alas, this is the drama that seems an essential part of my life...lol...
Silly girl.
Apart from that though, life is actually not too bad. Went swimming in the lake twice this weekend. Very refreshing, rejuvenating. Also worked the entire time. Friends from Vic came to visit, so yeah...the weekend was...bee...zee...
Good night, folks! School again in the god damned morning.
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