Reignited at the drop of a "shingggg"

Ah blasted universe. As you guys know I have had a long battle with forgetting what's his face. Yeah, so sue me. That's the way I work. If things aren't going anywhere I want it to, and there is nothing much that can be done...forget about it.

After about a week or so of blocking him on one form of messenger, he finds me in another.

Ughh, selfish bastard. He knows that I am trying to forget, yet he won't let me. It didn't even occur to me that he message me there. So then we had a little exchange regarding him messaging me. And I can't bring myself to block him on this one too. After awhile I told him to leave me alone, and so for a few days now...he has. I feel...disappointed on the one hand. But on the other, thankful as well. It's okay Ana. It's okay. Do not jump to conclusions and whatnot. There is no need to interpret everything that happens. Things are simply the way they are sometimes...

I don't know what to do. Just wait it out? I can't block him off this one right now. I just can't. Then it would be me making the stand. If he just didn't message me again, then I'd know for sure still that he wasn't....ughh...sometimes I am such an idiot. Think I need to therapy myself out of this...

Apart from that, things are going well. Spoke to the director of acedemics at my school and he agreed to write me a letter of reference for my grad school application. Woo hoo! It was scary going in to ask him but, finally got what I wanted so that's good. Plus he is faculty at UBC too. So sweet! Just improved my chances of getting in by quite a substancial...substantial?substansial? amount. lol...so much for grad school :P

Travel planning is going well. We have agreed on a time to leave plus the first and second destination...

SOmething that I'm wondering right now though is whether I have enough money to last for as long and for as many destination as I wanted to. Guess nothing is set in stone. Can always just set a tentative schedule and modify as needed. At least we got the first bit agreed on. You would not believe how much compromising it requires. Ughh...and we haven't even left yet!

Chill babe, chill. Worry gets me nowhere...