Today

It feels like I'm leading the simple life right now. Although it isn't. For some reason, living in Vic feels like a vacation. True, I've only been here for 3 days but oh man, I've felt so many different emotions at the same time.

This is actually quite exciting. On my quest to better understand myself and my emotions, these 3 days have been a tremendous learning experience. I've felt annoyed, jealous, loved, excited, sad, joy..I don't even know how to describe them. It has been a rollercoaster ride of emotions. Glad for it though.

It feels like I'm more grounded. Been sleeping lots, eating very well and feeling love all around. My family is great. For the most part...lol...and again, I've only been back for 3 days. So things are generally good.

Guess one thing that's kinda making me kinda sad is what's his face. Yeah, I'm still hung up on him. Chatting on line all the time. I really don't know what to do. I'm being such a fool for thinking about him all the time. It has come to the point of being obsessive, and yet...it doesn't have an effect on him. Well, I wouldn't say none at all but..not enough.

*sigh*

Something needs to be done and quick too. I can't live like this. Always thinking about him so far away...always longing to be with him. I don't know what to do.