Wow, this morning was interesting. Had breakfast with a Tibetan Lama...lol, despite the fact that we had pancakes for breakfast (nothing exotic about that) it was awesome!

Don't hate me for talking about him again. It's just that it's on my mind and I need to rant.

So, after about a week of not talking we've been chatting again. My bad I know...but...

I can't explain this. I don't understand it either. Is it love? Hmm, no.

It's just arrghh that I'm getting played. It feels like I keep trying to escape but somewhere along the line I'll go for the bait again and get reeled in. Don't know how I feel exactly right now but at some point I kinda realized that it wasn't going to happen. He is not the one that is going to be there for me...

It's not going to happen. I know this, and yet...

Maybe once I'm gone it won't even be an issue anymore. I'm just not going to get to come online as much as before and since we only talk online for the most part...guess there will be no contact for the next 5 months or so?

Great opportunity for me to get over myself! lol and him!!

Not to mention have the best times of my life!!