The Humbling Experience of Job Hunting

Yesterday was a very interesting day. See I function in little bursts of energy and yesterday it was in my head that I wanted to find work. A job that I had no experience doing but thought would be fun - front desk at a hotel.

So with gusto I went downtown but when it came time to walk into huge hotels with nothing but my resume in hand, I bailed. It was too scary, err what would I say? I have no experience. This is not my domain. And at one place I froze and let the man go on and on about how they were hiring for housekeeping and server positions. I filled out the application but was wondering the whole time why. A friend of mine is doing housekeeping for Traveller's Inn downtown. Yep, she graduated university just like me. A Bsc in Biology.

It almost made me want to cry thinking about it. So this is what all those years of education amounted to. Me in the lobby of a hotel on a wet rainy Wednesday afternoon facing the prospects of working as a hotel room cleaner.

Needless to say I filled out the application for a server position and bolted. That was it, dejected I resolved to quit for the day. A limit was reached.

Later the same day I somehow gave up on my ideals and went to the mall to hand out more resumes. I just need to be working ASAP to eliviate the stress of being idle. So my resumes went flying all over the place. This afternoon I have an interview for an assistant manager position at a lingerie store.

Again, lingerie is not what I had always imagined my career path to lead to. It sucks that I would be the slightest bit embarassed to be working at a store, or as a housekeeper. Wonderful people find themselves in rewarding careers in all kinds of different fields. Why would I snub that kind of work? Have I lost sight of my own humility? If I have then it's time to come down from my high horse.

I actually felt humilliated yesterday at the hotel.

Perhaps age has a thing to do with it as well. If I was still going through uni or in school, things wouldn't have been so bad. But when all your friend have high flying careers and you get to comparing...

Time to grow up. Yesterday was a good learning experience. I can no longer just do whatever kinda work. The time has come and gone for an era where any sorta crap work works for me. But then again, it's all a matter of perspective.

I'm beginning to wonder about the point I was shooting for so this is my cue to end this post.

My point though is that the older we get, the more set we are in the confines of our roles in life. It is true then. We really do not like change. Or rather, we're afraid of it.