Friday, March 14, 2008

Gone Going

When people find out that I'm moving this weekend they're like, "so soon?!" That's the standard reaction. For what reason I'm not entirely sure. There has been nothing much on my mind since coming home. Am I making the right decision, I'm not entirely sure either. The original plan was to look for a job first then move.

Hardly 2 weeks has gone by. It doesn't feel like it has been 2 weeks. Technically I've only left Canada for 2 months this time around, but my life in Van has been put on the shelf since leaving for the earlier trip. So essentially it feels like I've been away for a year and two months. Now it's time to jump right back into it. Am I ready? I sure hope so, by Sunday.

Should I have planned to stay here until I've found a job? Rent free? It's not even so much that it's boring here at my parents' like I've been telling people. It's more a feeling of restlessness. Like I can't wait to jump start my normal life again. Just like I had to with the car today! :) It has been too long. More than anything else this hasty move is for my sense of autonomy. And no amount of money in the world can be substituted for self-worth.

This is what I want to do.

4 comments:

Murni M said...

I know you'll pull this one off, I have no doubts;) And kudos to you for taking the necessary steps! *hugs* Whatever happens, you know who got your back, right? Way to go!!!! *cheers for Ana-raqs sharqi style, hiks*

Ana D. said...

lol, despite not knowing what you're talking about..thanks. Haha...sharqi style?

Ana D. said...
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Murni M said...

raqs sharqi= middle eastern dance aka bellydance ..lol!