Have you ever gotten so swept up in the rat race that you don't remember what day it is? Or feel yourself escalating into a full fledged panic attack with every passing moment? Have you gotten to the point where all you want to do is sleep all day and shut the blinds forever? Yeah, definitely signs of anxiety and depression.
For the past 2 weeks I've been this person. Only that I did not get to sleep and still had 8 weeks worth of back-logged school work to do. For the past 3 days, I've been glued to my computer from the moment I wake up until it is time to go to bed. This is NOT the life I want.
Unfortunately (or fortunately) I'm not the type to sacrifice myself for a later good. Maybe I was, which is what lead me into this rut in the first place. But no more. What if I were to die tomorrow? Today? Tonight? It would have been such a shame to have wasted the past 2 months in this chronic state of anxiety. This is not what the universe intended natural life to be.
I've given notice to quit my job. Done and done. Nothing is worth this bullshit.
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