Haven't really thought about Jay in quite a bit. Don't get me wrong, he still crosses my mind every so often. A place, a word...anything could trigger off memories in a second. But to actually think about him has been quite the anomaly. Just a few seconds ago, I made the mistake of looking through some profiles in friendster and had the unfortunate luck of coming across more recent pictures of him. Everytime I see even a picture of him, my heart sinks for a second. The disappointment and betrayal is beyond bearing. I neither hate him nor pine after him. Disappointment and disbelief are still what I feel most strongly when he comes to mind or into sight. Will this ever come to an end, I wonder...
Are the ex-files ever completely closed?
( I have a strong feeling that the last line was from Sex and the City)
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